Three years ago
I was on ma way home from school just thinking about what lie I could tell my mum so I could get out the house and go see Kingsley he had gone out of his way to get me a visitors slip and even ask his cousin ja’heem to pick me up and drop me off there I got home just as my mum was about to leave
Mum: oh good baby im going out with mike I’ll be back before 11 ok
I smiled and nodded she kissed me on the cheek and left out. well that was easie I ran up the stairs and got changed into my floral high waisted skirt black long sleeve top and my boyfriend type rainbow coloured cardigan I let down my hair and combed it to one side then combed my side fringe my fone buzzed telling me that ja’heem was out side
I sat down on the blue chairs waiting for the bell to ring it did and out came all the prisoners dressed in grey tracksuit bottoms baby blue polo neck and orange strap around there body I stood up when I saw kingsley walk towards me he smiled and hugged me tight in his arms we both sat down holding hands
Kingsley: you look nice babies I smiled again and opened my bag
Me: hear I brought you some sweets and cigarettes you know I can pass for 16 I smiled remembering I had bought the cigarettes my self
Kingsley laughted and thanked me for them then as we was talking I heard the door open I didn’t bother looking to see who it was but kingsleys eyes widened and his grip on my hand tightened I felt a presents next to me I looked up to see a coolie girl standing next to me holding a small baby girl she was screwing me big time
Her: who’s this she asked not taking her eyes of me I shot Kingsley a scornful look and let go of his hand already knowing what was going on
Kingsley: faith can you sit down his voice seemed a lot quieter then before less cocky and cheerful she sat down next to kingsley passing the baby over to him he started down loving at the baby almost forgetting I was even there
I picked up my bag and coat and walked away from the table he didn’t even call me back or any thing he was to busy cooing after her and that baby kmt
Back to now
I broke down in the shower remembering how my heart ached for months after I found out about faith and Kayla and how Kingsley didn’t even try to call me back or nothing he didn’t fight for me just embarrassed me infront of the whole room infront of that bitch slut hoe!. He didn’t even speak to me for a whole year it was only on Christmas day me rang my house fone to speak to me.
Christmas day
Me: hello?
Kingsley: baby is that you
Me: yeah but whos this?
Kingsley: its kingsley Nicole! At that moment my heart beat became so fast my hands became sweaty and my knees went weak I nearly dropped my house fone.
Kingsley: hello you still there?
Me: ahum….yeah in still ea what do you wont?
Kingsley: baby don’t be like that you know what I wont
Me: no I really don’t and don’t call me baby coz im not your any thing why don’t you waist you hour call on your bitch and youte!
Kingsley: don’t fucking start man Nicole why you jarring for!
Me: because you fucking cheated on me brought your bitch to vistiting hour and never even said shit when she tried to par me off fuck you man!
Kingsley: look in sorry I would of explained if you didn’t leave I love you she was just a mistake just a fuck that went wrong I swear
Me: hmmm
Kingsley: please baby I love you
Me: do you really mean that?
Kingsley: with all my heart we’ve been together since we was ten how could I not love you you’re my rock my every thing. He sniffed into the fone which made me know was telling the truth why else would he cry I wiped my tears away and just like that he had me back.
Back to now
I sighed at the thought of him being able to win me over so easily like that
Its just not right but when your in love proper deep love it doesn’t matter what the person does you still find you self weak at the knee when they tell you they love you
Kmt. I dried my self off and walked into to front room I looked at the time it was after 2 in the afternoon it was so nice to have the house to my self but I still missed kingsley. I got dressed into some black skinny jeans black jumper and put on ma trainers and walked out the flat. I walked all the way to liams house and walked in yeah his one of them people that always have people around his yard so the door is always open. His house was really quiet infact it was silent I walked into the front room and nobody was there
Me: hello….. LIAM!!
Liam: YO!
I nearly jumped out of my skin I swear he scared me half to death I turned around and he was standing by the door with shopping bags and his son kingsley and Reece (kingsleys brother) was standing behind him I looked at kingsley but he didn’t look at me he kept avoiding eye contact prick!
Liam: ay bitch grab a bag
I looked liam up and down like as if to say are you mad he kissed his teeth after me
Me: no after im not yeah helper ask one of them to do it!
Liam: kmt king tell yeah chick man! He pushed past me and carried the bags into the kitchen while the rest went into the front room I followed and sat down next to kingsley but he moved away from me I was just looking at him like what the fuck
Me: kingsley can we talk..
Kingsley: no just go home man!
Me: NO! why you being like this for I ju…..
Kingsley: I SAID GO FUCKING HOME!!!
The way he shouted at me scared the shit out of me the whole house rattled man I sat there staring at him in shock but I was too shook to move kingsley looked over vex but I didn’t understand why what did I do?
Me: DON’T FUCKING SHOUT AT ME KINGSLEY I HAVENT DONE ANY THING YOU PRICK…..
Kingsley: BLOOD ARE YOU FUCKING DUMB DON’T FUCKING EVER RAISE YOU VOICE AT MAN YOU FUCKIN DO AS I AS GO HOME! I stood up and as I was walking out I said
Me: GO SUCK YOUR DUTTY DEAD MOMS PUSSY! As soon as I said it I really wish I never you see kingsleys mom died really badly she was raped and she went mad after because she couldn’t cope with it and hung herself it was really bad because she was pregnant and kingsley found her so to say that to him was taking the piss but I just wonted to hurt him really badly. The way I tried to come out that house as quick as I could was just emotional but by the time I got to the hall I was too late kingsley had already caught ahold of me he was just holding on to my arm really tight looking into my eyes blood I was shitting my self because his face was just normal and his eyes were black this ment he was past angry he was in red zone you don’t wont to be there with kingsley because he WILL kill you.
Kingsley: were going home NOW! Oh shit I was so scared I just started bawling on the spot hoping he would leave me but he just dragged me all the way back to the flat he still had a blank face but his grip on my arm was still so tight my hand had turned blue and im black so that’s saying some thing. If only you knew how much I wish I never said that. As soon as he opened the flat door he let go of ma hand and pushed me to the floor and slammed the door I looked up still crying and his face was red with anger I was shook my whole body was shaking with fear he walked up to me slowly towering over me.
Kingsley: GO SUCK MA DEAD MUM YEAH ARE YOU FUCKING SICK IN THE HEAD NICOLE ARE YOU?!...... YOU MUST FUCKING BE!! He dragged me up by my hair all the way down the hall way into are bed room and into the bathroom he grabbed me up on to my knees and pushed my head down into the toilet bowl I was screaming for him to stop but he didn’t care he pushed my head down and flushed the chain over and over again after 10minutes he stopped and dragged me out I fell back on the floor breathing heavy I was crying so hard my heart hurt I was bawling so bad my thoat started to bleed because of the pleasure. he sat on the edge of the bath just looking at me his eyes were cold and his fists were clenched then out of now were he just starts punching me hard in the face screaming at me
Kingsley: YOU FUCKING BITCH YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY MOM WHY COULDN’T YOU JUST FUCK OFF WHY DO YOU MAKE ME DO THIS WHY I FUCKIN LOVED HER I LOVE YOU BUT YOU MAKE ME DO IT YOU!!…..he was crying by this point his punches getting more powerful then the last he didn’t stop he had no mercy his eyes black as Cole n shiny like the moon I couldn’t breath he didn’t give me chance to he just kept punching and screaming the same thing over and over again then….. Darkness.
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