Three years ago
I was on ma way home from school just thinking about what lie I could tell my mum so I could get out the house and go see Kingsley he had gone out of his way to get me a visitors slip and even ask his cousin ja’heem to pick me up and drop me off there I got home just as my mum was about to leave
Mum: oh good baby im going out with mike I’ll be back before 11 ok
I smiled and nodded she kissed me on the cheek and left out. well that was easie I ran up the stairs and got changed into my floral high waisted skirt black long sleeve top and my boyfriend type rainbow coloured cardigan I let down my hair and combed it to one side then combed my side fringe my fone buzzed telling me that ja’heem was out side
I sat down on the blue chairs waiting for the bell to ring it did and out came all the prisoners dressed in grey tracksuit bottoms baby blue polo neck and orange strap around there body I stood up when I saw kingsley walk towards me he smiled and hugged me tight in his arms we both sat down holding hands
Kingsley: you look nice babies I smiled again and opened my bag
Me: hear I brought you some sweets and cigarettes you know I can pass for 16 I smiled remembering I had bought the cigarettes my self
Kingsley laughted and thanked me for them then as we was talking I heard the door open I didn’t bother looking to see who it was but kingsleys eyes widened and his grip on my hand tightened I felt a presents next to me I looked up to see a coolie girl standing next to me holding a small baby girl she was screwing me big time
Her: who’s this she asked not taking her eyes of me I shot Kingsley a scornful look and let go of his hand already knowing what was going on
Kingsley: faith can you sit down his voice seemed a lot quieter then before less cocky and cheerful she sat down next to kingsley passing the baby over to him he started down loving at the baby almost forgetting I was even there
I picked up my bag and coat and walked away from the table he didn’t even call me back or any thing he was to busy cooing after her and that baby kmt
Back to now
I broke down in the shower remembering how my heart ached for months after I found out about faith and Kayla and how Kingsley didn’t even try to call me back or nothing he didn’t fight for me just embarrassed me infront of the whole room infront of that bitch slut hoe!. He didn’t even speak to me for a whole year it was only on Christmas day me rang my house fone to speak to me.
Christmas day
Me: hello?
Kingsley: baby is that you
Me: yeah but whos this?
Kingsley: its kingsley Nicole! At that moment my heart beat became so fast my hands became sweaty and my knees went weak I nearly dropped my house fone.
Kingsley: hello you still there?
Me: ahum….yeah in still ea what do you wont?
Kingsley: baby don’t be like that you know what I wont
Me: no I really don’t and don’t call me baby coz im not your any thing why don’t you waist you hour call on your bitch and youte!
Kingsley: don’t fucking start man Nicole why you jarring for!
Me: because you fucking cheated on me brought your bitch to vistiting hour and never even said shit when she tried to par me off fuck you man!
Kingsley: look in sorry I would of explained if you didn’t leave I love you she was just a mistake just a fuck that went wrong I swear
Me: hmmm
Kingsley: please baby I love you
Me: do you really mean that?
Kingsley: with all my heart we’ve been together since we was ten how could I not love you you’re my rock my every thing. He sniffed into the fone which made me know was telling the truth why else would he cry I wiped my tears away and just like that he had me back.
Back to now
I sighed at the thought of him being able to win me over so easily like that
Its just not right but when your in love proper deep love it doesn’t matter what the person does you still find you self weak at the knee when they tell you they love you
Kmt. I dried my self off and walked into to front room I looked at the time it was after 2 in the afternoon it was so nice to have the house to my self but I still missed kingsley. I got dressed into some black skinny jeans black jumper and put on ma trainers and walked out the flat. I walked all the way to liams house and walked in yeah his one of them people that always have people around his yard so the door is always open. His house was really quiet infact it was silent I walked into the front room and nobody was there
Me: hello….. LIAM!!
Liam: YO!
I nearly jumped out of my skin I swear he scared me half to death I turned around and he was standing by the door with shopping bags and his son kingsley and Reece (kingsleys brother) was standing behind him I looked at kingsley but he didn’t look at me he kept avoiding eye contact prick!
Liam: ay bitch grab a bag
I looked liam up and down like as if to say are you mad he kissed his teeth after me
Me: no after im not yeah helper ask one of them to do it!
Liam: kmt king tell yeah chick man! He pushed past me and carried the bags into the kitchen while the rest went into the front room I followed and sat down next to kingsley but he moved away from me I was just looking at him like what the fuck
Me: kingsley can we talk..
Kingsley: no just go home man!
Me: NO! why you being like this for I ju…..
Kingsley: I SAID GO FUCKING HOME!!!
The way he shouted at me scared the shit out of me the whole house rattled man I sat there staring at him in shock but I was too shook to move kingsley looked over vex but I didn’t understand why what did I do?
Me: DON’T FUCKING SHOUT AT ME KINGSLEY I HAVENT DONE ANY THING YOU PRICK…..
Kingsley: BLOOD ARE YOU FUCKING DUMB DON’T FUCKING EVER RAISE YOU VOICE AT MAN YOU FUCKIN DO AS I AS GO HOME! I stood up and as I was walking out I said
Me: GO SUCK YOUR DUTTY DEAD MOMS PUSSY! As soon as I said it I really wish I never you see kingsleys mom died really badly she was raped and she went mad after because she couldn’t cope with it and hung herself it was really bad because she was pregnant and kingsley found her so to say that to him was taking the piss but I just wonted to hurt him really badly. The way I tried to come out that house as quick as I could was just emotional but by the time I got to the hall I was too late kingsley had already caught ahold of me he was just holding on to my arm really tight looking into my eyes blood I was shitting my self because his face was just normal and his eyes were black this ment he was past angry he was in red zone you don’t wont to be there with kingsley because he WILL kill you.
Kingsley: were going home NOW! Oh shit I was so scared I just started bawling on the spot hoping he would leave me but he just dragged me all the way back to the flat he still had a blank face but his grip on my arm was still so tight my hand had turned blue and im black so that’s saying some thing. If only you knew how much I wish I never said that. As soon as he opened the flat door he let go of ma hand and pushed me to the floor and slammed the door I looked up still crying and his face was red with anger I was shook my whole body was shaking with fear he walked up to me slowly towering over me.
Kingsley: GO SUCK MA DEAD MUM YEAH ARE YOU FUCKING SICK IN THE HEAD NICOLE ARE YOU?!...... YOU MUST FUCKING BE!! He dragged me up by my hair all the way down the hall way into are bed room and into the bathroom he grabbed me up on to my knees and pushed my head down into the toilet bowl I was screaming for him to stop but he didn’t care he pushed my head down and flushed the chain over and over again after 10minutes he stopped and dragged me out I fell back on the floor breathing heavy I was crying so hard my heart hurt I was bawling so bad my thoat started to bleed because of the pleasure. he sat on the edge of the bath just looking at me his eyes were cold and his fists were clenched then out of now were he just starts punching me hard in the face screaming at me
Kingsley: YOU FUCKING BITCH YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY MOM WHY COULDN’T YOU JUST FUCK OFF WHY DO YOU MAKE ME DO THIS WHY I FUCKIN LOVED HER I LOVE YOU BUT YOU MAKE ME DO IT YOU!!…..he was crying by this point his punches getting more powerful then the last he didn’t stop he had no mercy his eyes black as Cole n shiny like the moon I couldn’t breath he didn’t give me chance to he just kept punching and screaming the same thing over and over again then….. Darkness.
Tuesday, 31 August 2010
tears of a broken hearted girl
Nicole sky almond
The gates opened and out he walked that same bop and bad man swagger he had when he first went in 4 years ago my gaze became wide as I saw him getting closer to me wow he was still as beautiful as before just more manly more grown up he still sent the same shivers down my spine as I watched him come towards me as his eyes gazes onto mine a smile appeared on his lips showing his white teeth I flashed one back and
He stopped dead infront of me.
Him: Nicole…… I stopped him with a single kiss I couldn’t hold it any more it had been nearly 6 years since I’d seen him last there was no need for words there was nothing I wonted to hear off him he saved my life there for he owned me no words I owed him my all. After some time of kissing we was pulled apart by Liam one of Kingsleys many friends I didn’t like much also for the fact that myself and Liam DO NOT!! Get along full stop. I stepped back and watched as they spoke in hushed voices
Why did they have to do this when im standing around and quiet clearly can hear them kmt. I stuffed my head fones in to my ears and sat down in liams car while they spoke prick’s. you see this is the part of Kinsley I hated the most his never learns from his mistakes NEVER he also never listens to me but what boy does kmt. I turned my iPod volume all the way up and rest my head back on the drivers seat thinking how I got hear in the first place then the nightmare came flashing back
Five years ago
Him: just run nick GIMME THE GUN AND RUN!! What the fuck had I just done mind was rushing heart bumping sweat washing me as we turned another corner the sirens kept getting closer and closer I was just praying in my head that god would please just spare us I still had the gun in my hand clutching on to it tightly as we ran in the pouring rain my legs felt so weak I wonted to just stop right there and drop but I knew I was running for my life the sirens were getting louder and kingsleys grip on my hand tightened I looked at him and he looked at me his eyes black with fear this was the first and last time I’d ever see Kinsley scared we turned another corner an found are selves In a dead end alley way the sirens were right behind us getting closer and more menacing as they came my heart was thumping that loud I swear you could hear it I looked up an noticed a small gate that we could squeeze though at that moment everything went silent
Me: a gate I said to him I looked over and pushed me too it it took me a about a second to get though next it was kingsleys turn he looked at me his eyes still as black as the sky the rain wetting his face and mouthed to me I love you I frowned and tried to drag him though but it was too late the sirens had stopped and they was running towards kingsleys shouting at him to drop the weapon I shock my head in disbelief as I looked down at my hand and realized he had taken the gun why! As they dragged him away he mouthed again run baby run he gave me that same sweet boy smile and then he was out of sight.
Back to now
I slowly started to get the feeling that some how this was all my fault my heart felt heavy and I new that at any minute I was about to burst into tears. I dragged out my iPod and put ma head in my hands I felt like this time around are relationship wouldn’t be how it use to be but he was all I had I had to make it work no matter what!. They joined me in the car and it was silent journey home I rested my head on kings shoulder while he spoke to Liam he softly stroked my hair. We got back home 3hours later well I say home its Kingsleys flat. I got out the car shutting the door lightly I took Kingsleys bag inside while him an Liam spoke some more I opened the door and dropped his things on the chair I looked around and it was still the same way I left it tidy! I walked down the hall to the kitchen to get some water the clear my dry throat as I turned the tap kingsleys big arms wrap around my waist I smiled and turned around
Me: I love you kingsley I smiled looking deep into his eyes he smiled looking deep into mine and said it back I leaned into him and he backed me up against the sink kissing me deeply getting more passionate in every kiss I was loving it his soft manly hands touching every part of my body making me tingle and jolt to his every touch it felt so right. He moved down to my neck and inbetween kisses he whispered to me
Kingsley: I missed you so much nick I though I would never see you again. I frowned as I felt his tears on my neck he then lifted me onto the sink so I could sit I wrapped my arms around his strong neck and we continued to kiss while his tears coated my lips with salty embrace I stopped and pulled away looking into his eyes I wiped his tears away kissing his fore head and jumped of the counter leading him to the bed room. In all my life I’ve never been in love like this before its like… I don’t even know. I pushed him back onto the bed and climbed ontop of him still kissing him but rubbing my hands all over his body from under his top. then took my hands lower and started rubbing his dick he was already hard slowly I slid down his body and stuck him dick in my mouth he all ways loved it when I did this and I took pleasure out of hearing him moan even if I though doing this was the most degrading thing I just wonted to please kingsley see the things we do for love.
I stopped just as he was about to come he slowly sat up and watched me undress licking his juice lips…. I was now completely naked kingsley stood up infront of me and took me into his strong arms kissing me all over running his hands though my hair he laid me down on the bed and slowly took of his clothes off he was now naked he climbed on top of me and I wrapped my legs around him and that was it no more lovey dovey shit we was straight beating not love making just rah fucking it hurt but in a good way think about it nearly 5 years with out sex that’s just madness we kept at it for the rest of the night not even stopping to eat only toilet breaks that’s it
I looked over at the clock it was 6 in the morning when Kingsley rolled off me he wrapped his strong arms around my waist and held me while we drifted off to sleep. I watched as his eyes closed then I finally let my self go to sleep.
As we was sleeping I was awoken by a high pitched scream I jumped and realized it was kingsley he was breathing heavey and drenched with sweat like some one had through water on him.
I sat up with in and tried to touch in but he flinched and pushed my hand away he looked so scared like terrified
Me: baby its me whats wrong? He didn’t answere he just got up and went into the bathroom I heard the shower going so I left him too it.
He came out and sat down on the edge of the bed wrapped in a towel I didn’t bother speaking to him because when his in this type of funny mood its best you leave him to it. He got up and got dressed into a tracksuit he walked out the bedroom with out even telling me his going out I quickly got up put my dressing gown on and followed him down the hall
Me: king were you going
He stopped just out side the front door he didn’t turn around just kept his head down facing the door
Kingsley: going to get some air init he opened the door and slammed it shut behind him. Wtf I walked back into the bed room and sat down on the bed trying to think it didn’t work my mind was blank. Kingsleys fone started ringing I picked it up and noticed the faith on the screen I sighed and put it back on the table you see faith is kingsleys likkel side bitch he cheated on me with her for 2weeks and got her pregnant I was heart broken but I still stuck by his side they have a daughter together Kayla she’s 3years old shes beautiful but I really cant stand her mother shes to inna fucking bitch she don’t even look after her child good….well may be that was a lie but she is a bitch
She kept foneing of kingsleys fone till I just got fed up and picked up
Me: hello!
Faith: is kingsley there I know his out!
Me: no his gone out but if you…..
Faith: don’t chat shit to me just put him on the fucking fone
Me: kmt look im looking to argue with you i….
If she cuts in one more time I swear
Faith: you know not to argue with me likkel gyal just tell him to come see his daughter with that she hung up on me ahh yeah see rude hoe
I dashes his fone across the bed and went to have a shower as I scrubbed my body clean I thought about the time I found out Kingsley cheated on me
The gates opened and out he walked that same bop and bad man swagger he had when he first went in 4 years ago my gaze became wide as I saw him getting closer to me wow he was still as beautiful as before just more manly more grown up he still sent the same shivers down my spine as I watched him come towards me as his eyes gazes onto mine a smile appeared on his lips showing his white teeth I flashed one back and
He stopped dead infront of me.
Him: Nicole…… I stopped him with a single kiss I couldn’t hold it any more it had been nearly 6 years since I’d seen him last there was no need for words there was nothing I wonted to hear off him he saved my life there for he owned me no words I owed him my all. After some time of kissing we was pulled apart by Liam one of Kingsleys many friends I didn’t like much also for the fact that myself and Liam DO NOT!! Get along full stop. I stepped back and watched as they spoke in hushed voices
Why did they have to do this when im standing around and quiet clearly can hear them kmt. I stuffed my head fones in to my ears and sat down in liams car while they spoke prick’s. you see this is the part of Kinsley I hated the most his never learns from his mistakes NEVER he also never listens to me but what boy does kmt. I turned my iPod volume all the way up and rest my head back on the drivers seat thinking how I got hear in the first place then the nightmare came flashing back
Five years ago
Him: just run nick GIMME THE GUN AND RUN!! What the fuck had I just done mind was rushing heart bumping sweat washing me as we turned another corner the sirens kept getting closer and closer I was just praying in my head that god would please just spare us I still had the gun in my hand clutching on to it tightly as we ran in the pouring rain my legs felt so weak I wonted to just stop right there and drop but I knew I was running for my life the sirens were getting louder and kingsleys grip on my hand tightened I looked at him and he looked at me his eyes black with fear this was the first and last time I’d ever see Kinsley scared we turned another corner an found are selves In a dead end alley way the sirens were right behind us getting closer and more menacing as they came my heart was thumping that loud I swear you could hear it I looked up an noticed a small gate that we could squeeze though at that moment everything went silent
Me: a gate I said to him I looked over and pushed me too it it took me a about a second to get though next it was kingsleys turn he looked at me his eyes still as black as the sky the rain wetting his face and mouthed to me I love you I frowned and tried to drag him though but it was too late the sirens had stopped and they was running towards kingsleys shouting at him to drop the weapon I shock my head in disbelief as I looked down at my hand and realized he had taken the gun why! As they dragged him away he mouthed again run baby run he gave me that same sweet boy smile and then he was out of sight.
Back to now
I slowly started to get the feeling that some how this was all my fault my heart felt heavy and I new that at any minute I was about to burst into tears. I dragged out my iPod and put ma head in my hands I felt like this time around are relationship wouldn’t be how it use to be but he was all I had I had to make it work no matter what!. They joined me in the car and it was silent journey home I rested my head on kings shoulder while he spoke to Liam he softly stroked my hair. We got back home 3hours later well I say home its Kingsleys flat. I got out the car shutting the door lightly I took Kingsleys bag inside while him an Liam spoke some more I opened the door and dropped his things on the chair I looked around and it was still the same way I left it tidy! I walked down the hall to the kitchen to get some water the clear my dry throat as I turned the tap kingsleys big arms wrap around my waist I smiled and turned around
Me: I love you kingsley I smiled looking deep into his eyes he smiled looking deep into mine and said it back I leaned into him and he backed me up against the sink kissing me deeply getting more passionate in every kiss I was loving it his soft manly hands touching every part of my body making me tingle and jolt to his every touch it felt so right. He moved down to my neck and inbetween kisses he whispered to me
Kingsley: I missed you so much nick I though I would never see you again. I frowned as I felt his tears on my neck he then lifted me onto the sink so I could sit I wrapped my arms around his strong neck and we continued to kiss while his tears coated my lips with salty embrace I stopped and pulled away looking into his eyes I wiped his tears away kissing his fore head and jumped of the counter leading him to the bed room. In all my life I’ve never been in love like this before its like… I don’t even know. I pushed him back onto the bed and climbed ontop of him still kissing him but rubbing my hands all over his body from under his top. then took my hands lower and started rubbing his dick he was already hard slowly I slid down his body and stuck him dick in my mouth he all ways loved it when I did this and I took pleasure out of hearing him moan even if I though doing this was the most degrading thing I just wonted to please kingsley see the things we do for love.
I stopped just as he was about to come he slowly sat up and watched me undress licking his juice lips…. I was now completely naked kingsley stood up infront of me and took me into his strong arms kissing me all over running his hands though my hair he laid me down on the bed and slowly took of his clothes off he was now naked he climbed on top of me and I wrapped my legs around him and that was it no more lovey dovey shit we was straight beating not love making just rah fucking it hurt but in a good way think about it nearly 5 years with out sex that’s just madness we kept at it for the rest of the night not even stopping to eat only toilet breaks that’s it
I looked over at the clock it was 6 in the morning when Kingsley rolled off me he wrapped his strong arms around my waist and held me while we drifted off to sleep. I watched as his eyes closed then I finally let my self go to sleep.
As we was sleeping I was awoken by a high pitched scream I jumped and realized it was kingsley he was breathing heavey and drenched with sweat like some one had through water on him.
I sat up with in and tried to touch in but he flinched and pushed my hand away he looked so scared like terrified
Me: baby its me whats wrong? He didn’t answere he just got up and went into the bathroom I heard the shower going so I left him too it.
He came out and sat down on the edge of the bed wrapped in a towel I didn’t bother speaking to him because when his in this type of funny mood its best you leave him to it. He got up and got dressed into a tracksuit he walked out the bedroom with out even telling me his going out I quickly got up put my dressing gown on and followed him down the hall
Me: king were you going
He stopped just out side the front door he didn’t turn around just kept his head down facing the door
Kingsley: going to get some air init he opened the door and slammed it shut behind him. Wtf I walked back into the bed room and sat down on the bed trying to think it didn’t work my mind was blank. Kingsleys fone started ringing I picked it up and noticed the faith on the screen I sighed and put it back on the table you see faith is kingsleys likkel side bitch he cheated on me with her for 2weeks and got her pregnant I was heart broken but I still stuck by his side they have a daughter together Kayla she’s 3years old shes beautiful but I really cant stand her mother shes to inna fucking bitch she don’t even look after her child good….well may be that was a lie but she is a bitch
She kept foneing of kingsleys fone till I just got fed up and picked up
Me: hello!
Faith: is kingsley there I know his out!
Me: no his gone out but if you…..
Faith: don’t chat shit to me just put him on the fucking fone
Me: kmt look im looking to argue with you i….
If she cuts in one more time I swear
Faith: you know not to argue with me likkel gyal just tell him to come see his daughter with that she hung up on me ahh yeah see rude hoe
I dashes his fone across the bed and went to have a shower as I scrubbed my body clean I thought about the time I found out Kingsley cheated on me
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